moving forward

We all have our moments where we hold onto the past.  It's natural.  I mean, the past is why we are here now, in this moment, right?  But it's one thing to be so CONSUMED by our past that we cannot even fully acknowledge this moment.  this.moment.NOW.  Living in the present moment is SUPER hard and it takes constant reminders from the self to put yourself back into the NOW.

I was suppose to start my 300 hour yoga training this weekend, but I bailed.  All weekend I have been contemplating as to if I did the right thing because I wasn't feeling so hot about it all.  For some reason, I didn't feel ready to embark.  Maybe I shouldn't say "ready" because I am ready for my 300 hour.  But I wasn't ready to be away from home for 4 days when I feel like I am never at home.  Chris and I are always here, there, and everywhere.  Sometimes it's nice to stare at a wall or actually get my laundry done.  I didn't feel content with my decision, but I knew that if I would have started my training, I would not have felt content during my training too - as my heart was longing to be home.  I wanted to embrace my training and absorb and live in the present moment, not be longing for something else.  Yet I continue to beat myself up;  yes it would have been nice to have 30 fresh hours of yoga under my belt and yes it would have been nice to have such a physical, mental and spiritual "workout" per se.

But sometimes, you need to listen to your heart.  It knows best.  Those are the times when self nourishment comes first.  No looking back on what I could have done  this weekend.  In fact, I committed to a few mentoring sessions for the 200 hour yoga students ~ with that, I can still be at home this weekend and still feel so blessed to see such an amazing group of yoga students learn and grow together.

I am moving forward, making some space in my life and letting go of these things I have been dwelling on.  Clearly, there's not much I can do about it or I would have done something by now.

And to think of all of the moments passing by right NOW because sometimes we dwell.  It's not worth it.

While in Boulder, I did spend my whole paycheck at whole foods (wait - is that why Chris always calls it whole paycheck???).  :)  Gathering items for some self nourishment - such as Pangea Organics facial cleanser.  mmmmmmmm!  has anyone tried it out?!?  yum.  Visit their website - you CAN'T go wrong!   I also bought ingredients for pumpkin bread french toast;  I will be trying it out this week.

http://paleomg.com/pumpkin-bread-french-toast/






After all is said in done regarding my choices this weekend, I have to say that I have gained tremendous knowledge and empowerment in the few mentoring sessions I was at.  I wouldn't trade that in for the world. 

Living in the past is toxic, people.   Facts of life... the fact of life.